What is it about digging in and refusing to loosen up your grip that is so human? Does it mean that everyone is a control freak to some degree? Or is it just me--it's probably just me.
I keep telling myself that I should let go of my worries and let God take care of me, but I just can't seem to do it. It's like I think I can take on the world with a paper sword and shield--and I know in my heart that I can't do it by myself, but I have to try and fail before I ask him for help.
I'm like that in my writing too. I just can't follow everyone's advice or critiques. I have to write myself into a corner before, utterly defeated, I ask for help. Of course this help usually requires that I do some major revisions. Do I learn--hello no. I'm too stubborn for that.
Hopefully someday I'll grow out of it--or at least grow enough in my faith to know when I'm in good hands.
