Miss Desi's World

Ok, so it's Lent again (already) and I can't believe it. So besides giving up the usual soda and french fry combination (which is much harder than it looks) I am going to try and write a little bit creatively every day. I will of course be posting these on my other blog with a one day lag. I write best at night so that is probably when I will be writing. I doubt it will be anything amazing, since I am also working on my first novel, but I just thought I would see what came out of writing other stuff too. And who knows...you might get little bits of my novel too!

*Miss Desi*

Mood: Energetic
Listening to: "First Time" Lifehouse

I think peace may be the greatest feeling in the world. It is such a beautiful calm.

*Miss Desi*

Listening to: "Seize the Day" Newsies
Mood: Calm

Hanging on is easier than letting go.

Why is that?

What is it about digging in and refusing to loosen up your grip that is so human? Does it mean that everyone is a control freak to some degree? Or is it just me--it's probably just me.

I keep telling myself that I should let go of my worries and let God take care of me, but I just can't seem to do it. It's like I think I can take on the world with a paper sword and shield--and I know in my heart that I can't do it by myself, but I have to try and fail before I ask him for help.

I'm like that in my writing too. I just can't follow everyone's advice or critiques. I have to write myself into a corner before, utterly defeated, I ask for help. Of course this help usually requires that I do some major revisions. Do I learn--hello no. I'm too stubborn for that.

Hopefully someday I'll grow out of it--or at least grow enough in my faith to know when I'm in good hands.

*Miss Desi*

Listening to: "Then" Brad Paisley
Mood: Sorrowful